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Sunday, May 15, 2005

( memories @ Sunday, May 15, 2005 )

maybe i've become too detached at times, that my heart has turned so cold, i cant feel a thing. after meeting alan and his brother and sis in law, things changed. i felt confused. stuck.afraid, that i might just fall deeper into THAT abyss, where i'd be back in that cycle of possession, pain, and play. i really can't understand myself at this point of time, where even choosing my school is such a difficult task.on one hand, im so keen to go to anzec, to fulfil my mission, and to escape from all these encounters in singapore, yet on the other, im too excited to experience the nus life.i simply dont really know what i want.my life has been too controlled. i need a b r e a k.

then at work, i met kak eka. where we said our goodbyes, and we realised we might never meet again ever. her "speech" nearly drove me to tears, but maybe i was already too stunned by the afternoon, that i couldnt feel too sad to cry. or simply , i only cry on the last day, and stay happy before that. kak eka bought me a bag, to the girl she said had grown up. i was touched. and she cried. i love u kak. but my eyes stayed dry. the tears just wouldnt roll, while kumudha's tears started rolling too. everyone's but mine.why? it must have been the afternoon. im to overwhelmed by that fear.

then came working wif kumudha. i really will miss all the evening girls already, so we hugged and kissed goodbye, with a smooch on the cheek. really love that babe. and everyone else. and not to forget, buddy darling. he gave me a box of kinder bueno. made me feel even sadder that i had to leave, yet, made me more confused. oh bd..

work's been kinda slack, though tonite was one of hte bziest nites, wif about 26 flights in total, which is quite high compared to usual..me and kum just kept strollin around the arrival hall.haa.

2 more days to go. i hope my tears wont roll. i just hope they wont roll...............

[SAYING GOODBYE][to kak eka, kak tikus, and kak ani]

Time passes so quickly
it was just yesterday when we said hi
and before i even know it
its already time to say goodbye

the words are hard to come out
but the tears dont stop rolling through
and in your mind you question
when again, will i see you?

sometimes the heart feels the sadness
but it wants to be strong
it wants to keep the beautiful memories
that it has had, all along

times of anger, times of panic
times of laughter, times of fun
all these moments spent together
i'll cherish every single one

im thankful to have met someone so special,
and im glad you came my way.
that is why i just wanna say " i love you "
cos goodbye, is hard to say.





Ingenue-Inspired.Intrigued.Ineffable affection.



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